Oh the days....

our days really haven't been any easier than when we blogged last....now everyone is all pissed off at us because we said the wrong thing...NEVER have i ever gotten upset about this type of situation with them...but i can only take so much...and allow it to go so far...the brother (jodi) said that they needed to relax and cool out abit on the teasing part....they were like oh she knows we're only joking....he said joking or not...she might laugh and smile right along with you..but you really don't know how she feels afterwards....him and i had a talk about it tonight..and i'm glad that i was finally able to let him know how i was really feeling about the situation...but that doesn't mean it's going to change their attitude towards me...anyway as far as anything else i think i put up in a very confusing situation....which is still closed to details for the time being...or at least til i realize what i big mistake i might be making.....

i know that i've started to learn out to love myself and the others within....i've learned how to be open about the person/s that i am...the person/s that i obviously was meant to be....yet i've learned that people like to think that i use this as a crutch...holding on...just so i have to have to be strong enough to deal....what they don't realize is that THEY ARE MY STRENGTH!!..and they're the ones that keep this body going right now....all in all...people like me are semi-blessed to be dealing with this...yet at times it feels like a HUGE CURSE because of the other crap we have to go through in dealing with this way of survival.....i'm still growing and still learning more about myself...and yes i'm going to slide backwards and revert into old ways...but isn't that how we come to learn more about ourselves?!

anyway...we have been working for quite a while now...longer that planned but that's a good thing...we're on our own and are able to support ourselves for once and not having to rely on anyone...we have had some troubles at work..but we don't keep our voices silent...we speak up when we feel like we're being treated unfair at the job....funny....WHY CAN'T WE DO THAT ON AN EVERYDAY BASIS WITH EVERYONE!?!?!?!.....oh well...just wanted to blab for a bit....