i honestly can't do this anymore...i feel like i'm stuck...where i'm at and where i stay i can't have my own opinion and everyone thinks that it's ok to joke on or about me.....but i sit here with a smile and laugh and act like it's ok...they don't see everything that's wrong...and then when i speak up for myself...my "friends/family" get mad at me because i'm finally trying to say something...but when it comes down to it when others besides them try to say something...that's when they have an opinion...i know it's fukked up...and i try to say how wrong it is...but they always think that i'm wrong..i NEVER tell them what to say or how to feel....why is it they feel the need to say something????!!!! i treat people the way i want to be treated....which is with respect and honor...but ...all the time i feel like i'm disrespected....i want to be on our own...but certain curcumstances in life doesn't allow me to be....maybe the one that i truely care for is right...i do need to be on my own...and away from the way that people treat me bad...but i'm scared at the same time...why am i singled out because i'm different???? because i don't follow the crowd?? is it the same for others???????? i try to pretend that i'm happy but deep within i know we're not....so now i just wanna run...i just wanna disappear and wonder what they'll think if i'm gone...fukk i can't get away from shyt no matter where i go....i'm so tired...tired of fighting...tired of trying to fit in...bytch my fukkin name is on all the bills here...i pay the shyt...but i have to listen to you??!?!?! HELL FUKKIN NO!!! if you want it the way you want it...then YOU do something....fukk this ..i gotta be thru!!!!!!!!!!!!!!